Wednesday, January 30, 2008

2:58 PM

Haha today started out really really sucky but the 27THS DINNER AT FISH & CO TOTALLY TOTALLY ROCKED. Hahaha I've never been so happy this year!

Anyway. Today me mandy junyang yiran sean linxi melho kovan were supposed to go for SMU h3 econs matriculation by 5pm. We wanted to watch the BOYAHS perform (they are so freakin CUTE hahaha) so we stayed in school until like 4plus then we all (except linxi and mel who insisted on taking mrt) cabbed down to SMU.

We made it in time... but at the entrance the people told us we needed our ICs to continue. And mandy and I didn't bring our ICs. Wth! So they refused to let us through and told us to come back tmr -.-

Oh linxi and melho were worse. They reached at 5.05 thereabouts and were refused entry cos 'the system closed at 5pm already' -.-

Anyway we went to drink coffee and study till 27THS DINNER!

Which was damn freaking fun and high aha. Mandy and I bought a new council jive so we all started writing crap in it :D Oh oh oh and yewei and sean went up to the stage to perform! And yewei was so damn good, the professionals asked for his number so they could contact him for professional singing stuffs omg so cool la :D

Yay I love my 27ths! We must must have more dinners together aha. Fun fun.

27ths make me happy (: Life's damn tough but its also damn good.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

4:09 PM

This may sound bad but

at this point in time I really resent the knowledge that there are councillors in council who're having a slack term

because there're so many overtaxed people dying.

And I REFUSE to stop angsting. rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

3:22 PM

I've been giving nothing more than sloppy work for everything I've been doing so far, council, homework, church. Loads of backlog and half-hearted attempts at everything and yeah I'm not happy with any of it too.

But I really need time to get a firmer foothold and to be stronger physically and mentally

because I'm on the verge of buckling under all the pressure already.

Monday, January 28, 2008

3:52 PM

and ian never fails to cheer me up.

(: ian says:
jiening will you go out with me one day
(: ian says:
just the two of us
(: ian says:
and the rest of the decor squad
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
ooooooooooooooh
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
sounds like a plan.
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
you really mean
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
just the two of us
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
and the rest of the decor squad
(: ian says:
yeah it'll be a nice private date, just the two of us
(: ian says:
the rest of the decor squad
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
WHY NOT
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
a romantic time, just the two of us
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
and the rest of the decor squad
(: ian says:
we can have a fun time laughing together
(: ian says:
at shuhan
(: ian says:
kay sounds like a plan
(: ian says:
its time to tell yelin to book the 5 star restaurant
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
hehe
(: ian says:
otherwise known as
(: ian says:
yelin's house.
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
woahhhhh.
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
that sounds really private!
(: ian says:
cool right.
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
and romantic.
(: ian says:
of course
(: ian says:
anything for you
(: ian says:
and the decor squad
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
i love you
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
and the decor squad
(: ian says:
haha this is some
(: ian says:
...........s
MT 08 '08 jiening. sun in my universe. says:
hahahaha lol

3:34 PM

I. AM. DAMN. ANGSTY.

RAR.

I really want to kill the idiot who threw away half of our elections board material YOU KNOW HOW BLOODY LONG I SPENT ON IT -.-

I am going to fail all my tests.

Sorry to my housed for disappearing all the time cos of CC and elections. I am totally out of the loop now pls. AND I still feel v bad towards joseph cos I always throw my tantrum at him! ):

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Friday, January 25, 2008

2:58 PM

And reality comes crashing down on the floor.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

2:05 PM

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from Earth into Eternity.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

4:05 PM

I think I'm crazy! Hahaha.

But it's okay it's the last year so I have a right to be crazy.

Rarr!

THANKYOU

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

3:02 PM

I am full of ANGST and FRUSTRATION today.

Sorry + thanks junyang who caught me falling apart.

COUNCIL ELECTIONS IS STARTING. SECRETARIAT IS EXCITED (:

I am strong!

Monday, January 21, 2008

1:38 PM

I can do it. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.

"Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit," saith the Lord

Saturday, January 19, 2008

2:56 PM

I saw my OGling's msn personal msg-- 'I'm fat' and I was like o.o

MT 08 '08 jiening. the sun in my universe says:
wth you're fat?
paper heart says:
wth can u dun be so random
MT 08 '08 jiening. the sun in my universe says:
wth its your pm??
paper heart says:
ok sorry
paper heart says:
i didnt notice
paper heart says:
my brother change it for me

LOL

1:21 PM

HOW COULD I FORGET MT0907 SORRY!

Thanks so so much for coming down for the MT party and helping out! Von kwok jianhui teeyong melvy love you guys <3

OG OUTING ONE DAY PLS (:

5:43 AM

House party ended! Big load off.

Love my oglings haha. Even though I always get jacked by them.

I can see the end coming ):

I'll miss everyone alot! Especially zhiwen grace ashvin joseph ally my dearest housed who's been with me through all sort of weathers. The mad storm of last year's sports ihc, the fun late night of teachers' day, all the 7 hours long meetings, all our emo/whining/act cute moments.

Soon we'll all just be those 27ths.

But I think I never want to be in any other batch but ours, cos ours IS the best (: The craziest, most ambitious, wacko-est batch everr.

There's so much I'll miss when J2 ends. My yearmates whom I've known and loved for 6 years. My 27ths. Decor people. 3R. My sec school friends. My OGlings. When there isn't a place like school to hold us all together, who knows when we'll ever meet again?

'cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

4:07 PM

TAN ZENG YAO IS GOING TO DIE.

Rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

3:07 PM

BIG DAY TOMORROW.

Zhiwen ashvin have rugby training joseph ntu h3 bio ally's sick so grace and I are going to man it ourselves. Alright man we rock.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I've got damn bad mood swings! Haha! I know. Joseph and grace were bullying me today cos of it. Hopefully it'll clear in 2 months' time though I think I'll be a moodswing schizo monster for the rest of the year ):

Haha okay I'm so scared for tomorrow I hope it goes well!

We'll see (:

<3 thanks!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

2:32 PM

There's so much to say but once again this never is the place to say it.

I think I'm going mad.

Hweeleong's a fat-arsed pervert.

MY SOUL IS BEING SUCKED AWAYY.

Stop insisting I am what I am not. It was funny at first but now it's actually getting tiring to hear and I've totally given up on my own defense and letting it get worse and worse and spreading farther and wider and becoming more and more ludicrous and God what are people making me out to be. And sometimes things are taken too far especially when no one believes anything I say and I'm just left frustrated and annoyed although I don't usually show it, but trust me, it's only cos it's so ridiculous sometimes that I'm just speechless.

Anyway I don't know why but recently there's been a big hoo-ha over the way I sit, which is too like a guy apparently. Look I've been sitting like that since primary school. And if my mum gave up trying to change it many years ago, I don't see how anyone else can.

1 more day to Big day!

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

2:55 PM

2 more days.

We can do it! (:

House party council week j1 noms briefing SATs orientation2 noms interviews campaigning voting council camp END.

Monday, January 14, 2008

1:58 PM

And I'm so tired of trying that I'm too scared to try anymore.

There are some things you really can't make fun of. Cause it hurts me for people to laugh about it.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

3:46 PM

A quick 5 reasons to love my housed:

1. We. are. all. WEIRDDD.
2. We can scream and hurl vulgarities at each other one moment and be great friends again the next. Haha I think we've shocked quite some people with our schizo-ness already. Like juanhe who sat through one of our meetings was quite scared at how we argued haha. But it's all part of the fun and funkiness of our meetings!
3. Everyone's a big joke. We're racist to ashvin. We ignore everything joseph says. They think I'm a big huge weirdo. We complain grace whines too much. Zhiwen looves to act cute. Ally cannot spell EVERYTHING.
4. The guys are damn gentlemanly. Which of your house capts offer to carry all that's on your hands, and stands on the outside of the path (courtesy of gen :D) when you walk out to j8? And the other 2 guys always offer to help us carry heavy stuffs and do the manly saigang. And make goodluck gifts for our promos. And buy our belated bday presents. How cool is that.
5. We only do what we all collectively believe in (: Or we spend hours arguing until we all agree on it.

<3 5 more days to house party!

Friday, January 11, 2008

3:50 PM

Amount of hair I dropped during one GP lesson:

Amount of hair I swept up from under my study table today:

If this goes on I'll be hairless! Shit.

My bro and I think it's too much eating out. ):

Ahhhh tired. Icandoit!

I feel happier today cos I understood juat about everything! (:

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

2:35 PM

IM DROPPING A DAMN LOT OF HAIR ):

Everytime I touch my head some hair falls off. There's this large pile of hair on the floor below now.

Oh no.

):

What to do

1:43 PM

Second day of school and already I am overwhelmed by everything.

Shit seriously never sit in the canteen. You see everyone studying and you start panicking.

I. Need. To. Do. Well.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

1:48 PM

So orientation is over.

2 month's worth of hardcore effort and it's all flown by. Today we all went back to being students, wearing our school uniforms and attending lessons. Seeing oteamers in their school uniforms, especially those I've never known of till orientation, was just plain weird.

Orientation rocked. I'm glad I really went all out to enjoy myself this time. Like screaming at random moments and embarrassing/ deafening my OG. I'd never have dared to do such a thing in the past haha but it's ORIENTATION and I love everyone!

Shoutouts:
MT08 '08! Thanks so much for giving me so much joy and love throughout the whole orientation period (: going along with my whims, all the teasing, for showing me your love, for taking such good care of me, even to the extent of stretching the truth (like agreeing I'm the chioest in the OG hahaha) I'm damn touched like seriously. I really really hope the OG bonds more and that I can get to know everyone better. And most of all I hope you guys can make me feel proud of being the OGL of an OG who never dies.

MT 09 '07! FOR BEING THE OG THAT NEVER DIED. WE'RE HAVING OG OUTING ON SATURDAY. Plus they came to crash my OG today because the l'odge was taken up! I love you guys! Thanks for having always been there for me, even though I know I'm a lousy ogmate who always pangseh you all thanks to council commitments. You know I still love you guys (:

Tan zengyaoo philip my co ogl haha sexy guy! Joking. Thanks for all the fun and laughter and frustration we've shared! (: Thanks for letting me bully you and for trying (a little) to be gentlemanly even though you're totally not. And thanks hongjie for sharing him with me for 1 week hahaha

Decor!!! Or as me and ben say, T'ecor! Jon, shuhan, ian, ben, nicky, zhizhi, justin, junliang, hanson especially especially. For alllll the fun, laughter, frustration, dedication, encouragement, teasing and care through the whole 2 months we've been preparing for orientation. For ignoring anna whenever she nags at us to go home or to eat lunch. For our retarded cheers and jokes. For all the teasing which I actually find funny most of the times. For making me notorious thanks to that pimpstress nickname. For letting me pour paint on you all. For all the 9am-9pms in school you guys have stayed with me. For never giving up even when we were tired and down. And most of all, for making me feel loved and be part of the most happening, most passionate team that could ever exist ever. Thank you.

I miss walking around school barefoot, with paint all over my hands legs and pe shirts. I miss chalking mother big banners and mixing paint. I miss being the few people left in school at 8pm at night. I miss S11 chicken rice lunches. I miss decor!

Yep. Was emoing with hanson last night while having supper/dinner with my OG. And he really made me feel very very sad, when he said this: 'Orientation's over. At least you still have council to look forward to; I have nothing.'

I will really die when my council term ends.

And here are some photos to end off orientation:

Much love to my pseudo OG t'inkerbell 123! We had the most lianz name in the world but the coolest people (: You guys made my dry run 1 rock!

MT OGLs!Thanks for always being there to support us houseds. And for making my dry run 2 rock, all the singing, dancing and camwhoring (:

MT'08! With the coolio MT banner which nicky, me, philip and some nice random non-MT councillors help paint.

A huge part of the lovely decor com! T3h core of T'ecor! :D

Decor, this is from hanson and me to you:

MUACKS.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

5:21 PM

I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL ):

And I'm damn near a breakdown now I need some major cheering up SOMEONE CHEER ME UP ):

And there's nothing wrong with joking about me. I'll laugh along too, as long as it's funny. But when you go overboard, especially when I'm in a bad mood just shut the fuck up when I tell you to please.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

4:24 PM

Orientation! (:

MT08 rocks haha.
:
EA! We were the first MT og to reach!!! :D Good jobz my darlings.

Haha My og's generally not very good at cheering loudly but we have loads of fun during games ((: We played murderer last night damn fun. A few of us sat in a circle holding hands for nearly 10 mins wondering why the murderer wasn't killing, until the detective accused and maligned every single one alive. Then we found out the murderer actually died already -.-

Went out to minds cafe todayyy haha we had loads of fun too! :D UGLY DOLLS :D

Hope the og will continue to stay together after orientation ends. Pleaaase?

Haha my two act cute-camwhore partners:

Haha I dun like the one I took with them. This one gay-er :D

Last day monday! May it rock.

School's starting. Havent started studying SATs. Thinking of postponing it. ):

Can I just stay in singapore bloody hell.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

3:57 PM

Decor
I am from decor.
I paint banners every day.
I stick glue on paper.
I stick cotton on paper.
I make clouds.

I tie string to clouds.
I tie string to railings.
I hang clouds.

Clouds fall from the sky.
I am very sad.

I am from decor.
I paint banners every day.
I call shuhan 'stupid'.
Shuhan frowns.
Everyone laughs.

I call jiening 'bimbo'.
Jiening smiles.
Everyone laughs.

I am from decor.
I paint banners every day.
I am stupid.

Hahahaha by nicky! :D Damn funny we were reciting it to everyone in the retarded polo way and everyone was just 'wth'. Lubbs decor dip dips eh.

My og! Haha is made up of nice people (: Had a good time at dinner. Yay hopefully tmr wont be as stoned as the afternoon! :D

Time is running out.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

6:14 AM

Some photos to end off last year:

Here's to the new year:

Gotta run meeting philip that guy is 1h late wth