Tuesday, September 30, 2008

4:43 PM

Haha.

It sucks to fall at the last moment, it really does.

After a continuous spate of Bs for econs since forever, I just had to do badly for prelims. It isn't even a 'okay la not too bad at least' kind of bad, it's just bad. Oh well. Dunno what to say.

And gp was.......... Haha. Not what I'd love, but I didn't expect it to be any better lah I guess? At least it didn't follow the pattern of alternating As and Bs anymore that would have meant me getting a B for As. Eh that might mean something! Or might just mean that I need to.. study harder for gp! Haha.

Lol anyway today was another bad studying day (and I dunno why I still do this) because we spent the whole time debating 'what ifs'. Who in council would you be willing to spend a week with in a totally enclosed room. Who in council would you love to be your parent. Would you marry a girl if you found out she was a transvestite. You know, all those retarded but still engaging stuff. This is really like the age when everyone's just questioning and questioning all the 'what ifs' in this world. Nick, me, joo and hweeleong (with ben listening and smiling at the sidelines) spent almost two hours debating about the christian faith lol. Not that it wasn't fun, just very exhausting.

But it's good to ask about the what ifs, I guess? There's so much in the world we're at the brink of experiencing! Though we'd probably never ever find out the answers to all our questions (unless your bf really turns out to be a trannie).

Ah well.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

5:08 PM

3:22 PM

Um so.. did anyone else slack their whole weekend away like I did? :\

Saturday, September 27, 2008

1:36 PM

Life is such a long, long journey. Haha.

Thankfully I have great people to walk it with me

Friday, September 26, 2008

2:47 PM

Wow what a day.

This morning started off as one of the worst mornings I've ever had in my entire life, I think in the span of 1 hour I took to get to school I must have used up my lifetime quota of f-words.

Thankfully God never lets a day start bad and end bad. Got back math chem bio and they were good, my chem and bio grades are nothing short of pure miraculous (chem only if chung manages to get my bloody half mark for me. Come on!) and I really only have God to thank. Like, a million zillion times. A gazillion. Math I'm kind of resigned, I think I can forgo all my subjects and hardcore math for years and still do badly. Hopefully GP and econs won't be too bad, then I'd be really really happy. But hearing the really negative comments about both papers, may be a little tough :\

Lol. Life.

In other nice news, my younger brother topped his school for his prelims (: Nice.

He's finally on chummy terms with my mum again, and probably may start speaking to my dad soon? Great, then it's my turn to never ever talk to them ever. They probably'd hardly notice.

1. "Oh did you just say you got 2 As and 1 B? For what subjects? I didn't hear properly"
" You just want to know what I got B for right? Math"
"Oh..."

2. "I topped my class for bio."
"Oh! Your brother topped his school for bio!"

Great parents.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

3:18 PM

Haha went out for a last minute date with my yearmates. Our most failed outing so far, because it was only decided upon like this morning!

Watched my bestfriend's girl which was the second m18 movie I've catched in 2 days aha. Okay it was quite funny though! Wayyyy better than mirrors in any case. Aha. Why my yearmates rock: 1. Four of us finished allllll the popcorn we bought by the time the movie started (compared to when my other 5 friends and I watched wall-e and we didn't even finish half the packet) 2. they thought wall-e sucked too (unlike half the world) 3. they are retarded. Haha!

Had dinner together and walked around to shop for presents for yearmates who're having birthdays soon.

Sigh okay. After today it's back to hell. Tomorrow is soooo going to be a fun day huh. ):

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

4:12 PM

I would love to go into my room now and sleep but I'm still too freaked out, the windows reflect too! So I'm just in the study staring resolutely into my monitor screen pretending that I can't hear noises behind me.

Almost freaked out having to take the lift up to my house, forgot that the whole elevator is freaking FULL of huge mirrors. Left right centre, mirrors for you to see your front view side view back view EVERYWHERE. But ah well it was the lesser of two evils, the second having to walk up creepy stairs.

Where the hell are my brothers when I need them D:

Haha god I am a little kid

3:00 PM

Oh my god.

Everytime I go watch some horror movie I'll walk out and promise myself never to watch another again. But it seems that I never ever keep my promises to myself.

WHY didn't we watch mamamia instead??

We made an extremely last minute switch from a perfectly healthy PG movie to a m18 for gore movie after hweeleong goaded us on to watch mirrors because he said that it was good and everything.

When we walked in and sat down I immediately REGRETTED thinking it might make a good change, seriously.

Watched most of the movie behind my jacket haha. And moaning into lynette's shoulder about how I didn't want to watch the movie anymore. Gross gross grosssssss. It was totally something hweeleong and yewei would have loved to bits. But I'm going to have nightmares and I dunno how I'm going to be able to face another mirror for days.

Rar.

But other than that, good day!

Went out with the class (which uh consisted of 5 people) for lunch, then met nick nette and hweeleong to walk around and be spontaneous. 3 of us ended up being nick's fashion adviser, we were walking into random shops finding random clothes for him to model for us haha :D

Then met sean and we went for tea at nydc before watching our horror/gore movie, then had dinner with giraffe.

Friday is coming! ):

And I am still damn freaking scared. Haha. Shit. I should never ever ever ever watch horror movies. NEVER. Nick tong insisted on walking me home. Haha thanks nick :D

Monday, September 22, 2008

3:21 PM

It could mean so much but also so little; it depends on who you mean it to hear, how you mean it to be.

Finally wakened up
a twist in my story
It's time I opened up;
And let your love right through me.

How would you like to die? Pass away when you're asleep, so you go away peaceful and not knowing, or of a sickness? Personally I would rather die of cancer. Cancer is really like the price you have to pay to know when you're going to die. And I'd like to know when I'm going to die. Anyway hurting really kinda makes you feel alive doesn't it? Says the girl who can't even watch cartoon gore without freaking out haha.

Is 18 too young to think about how you'd like to die? :\

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I have just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
Can't take my eyes off of you;

In other less morbid news, I really, really don't want my papers back ):

Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
it's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now.

If you think too much you're bound to think too far; so whether or not you would prefer to also depends on whether you mind getting hurt. If you would love to, then go ahead.

Not a whisper; the only sound is the reciever
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence.

/edit/ JAPHETH ENG IF YOU THINK I'M GOING TO COME BACK EVERY DAY NEXT YEAR TO MAKE YOU STUDY FOR YOUR As, YOU THINK FKING WRONG. Wtf. My brilliant buddy just slept till evening after his gp paper, then went to watch a movie. Because I went out with my friend to have a life. Omg so who's the one caring about his promos??

Look, even if you're brilliant, even if you can get 3 As and 2 Bs without studying, doesn't mean you shouldn't study or care about studying. And he finds it perfectly normal to not mug because there's a soccer match going on online.

If you can't care, then I don't see why I should. End rant. /edit/

2:57 PM

Freedom is really a little overrated.

Well okay, I guess I can't deny that I've had some of the best sleep since ages (omg I can actually fall asleep at night!) and it feels like the day will never ever end all the time, but well.

Went out shopping with mum(the fake one) today, something I haven't done since forever! :D Haha. Damn tired now.

Singapore is really quite boring, actually. How the hell do you get interested after walking down orchard road one zillion times? Okay maybe it's just me but I'd rather see vast expanses of grass or hills or even cow shit than to see vast expanses of roads and buildings after buildings crowded together all the time.

Very tired.

And very pissed off. Leave me alone.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

3:09 PM

I am BORED.

Guess how I spent my sunday?

I spent it in school, trying to make my buddy mug for his promos! Haha. Wth, seriously.

Thank God I'm going out tmr with mum, I HATE staying at home. Having to live in this house for another few years as an alternative is one of the biggest reasons why I want to study overseas so much.

Anyway more photos cos I found them funny.

Haha the failed boyband because the guy looking at the cam would rather be pimping ;)

Ngiam getting a haircut from hweeleong ashley and zhiying! The video is freaking retarded!

One of 20 photos hweeleong took of me while pretending to be playing a hp game on my hp, because he thought it would be funny. This was when I got suspicious and demanded my phone back.

Decor! Haha! The banner I designed and everyone complained about because there were too many colours haha :D Top woman says, 'That's poor'. Bottom says, 'Life is tough. love, decor comm'. Decor was really one of the greatest most defining moments of jc life (: Ah.

And this is hweeleong and nick holding hands, trying to feel each other and reflect about the universe. Lol. Okay actually only nick doing that, hweeleong was getting me to take the picture.

SLEEPING BEAUTYYY WHERE'S YOUR PRINCE CHARMINGG? HAHAHA. Wanjoo I bet you never knew I took this! :D Loser!

May better days be coming :\

I am ROTTING to death.

Friday, September 19, 2008

4:37 PM

And this was what we spent our past month doing:

Drinking tehping. Tehping is like the Lifesource, from which we gain our knowledge, wisdom and drive to mug from.

Suck. Haha seriously. We aim to suck as best as we can, at all times. We have competitions competing who could suck the chocolate out of the collon fastest, and who could suck those longstranded sweet thingums fastest! Of course lynette and yewei are the winners respectively, which shows how well they suck. Suckers.

And I was like the official photographer of all the retarded things yewei went about doing. So, just to embarass him I present:

Yewei the monk with an overbig halo,

Yewei the ugly bearded man who is the world's greatest sucker,

And Yewei the ugly transvestite model who spent the whole month wearing my clips to keep his fringe up. Haha he often walked out of the councilroom forgetting he was wearing them, and I always kept quiet cos I thought it was HILARIOUS. Lynette always spoil the fun by telling him D:

And other random photos I found:

This is damn retarded! Sean with ugly false teeth and ashley with a snake's tongue hahaha.

Davidlu during one night of mugging when the wind was howling like crazy and he was feeling cold aha

Some random collection of hands-holding-imaginary-poles I found. Seems like all my friends find it very amusing to pretend to be holding poles aha.

Dun have all our fake family portrait photos though those are with yewei.

Sigh. Fun days.

One day when I'm free I'll scrapbook everything!

Oh and wanjoo had this really cool idea of having this huge book that would be circulated amongst a few of us during the years we'd be overseas/NS-ing! We'd like take turns to write entries about our lives into it and then post it to random places in the world where the others are :D Then we will all be able to read about each other's lives and keep in touch :D

Haha. Hopefully it'll work out.

4:37 PM

Wow.

It's over.

Right now the sense of freedom is just so indescribable. It's like nothing can go wrong, for a long time.

This morning after the paper davidlu walked up to us and said, 'Finally, I can start speaking properly and in full sentences again.' Haha! Indeed.

Few of us caught a movie, wall e, which I thought was damn cheesy and gross. Why the hell are two androgynous robots in love with each other?? But well everyone else thought it was a great movie :\ Haha. And we walked around town for hours and hours window shopping. Grand cathay has damn cool shops (:

Went with my buddy to visit poor jeremy who's lying in hospital now because the hole in his lung ruptured or something. Then I ended up accompanying my buddy studying, because his promos are in 2 days and he hasn't started mugging. Lol. And I promised to go back to school on monday to mug with him/ make him mug in case he doesn't D:

Sigh. What I'd give for As to end :\

Thursday, September 18, 2008

12:33 PM

They say the last lap is the most trying one, and indeed here I am fighting hard to study for chem which is supposedly going to be killer.

In my head this battle is going on:
'Omg I better do well for this to salvage my chem grade!'
'Aiyah 20% won't affect anything much. Just chillout and relax now!'

Haha shit. The prospect of getting prelims over and done with is just too exciting.

I've never envisioned myself so far ahead in life before. I'm 18! My prelims are ending! A levels are here! It makes you feel all old and wrinkly, doesn't it?

In any case I can't see life getting any better in the near future; everything started going downhill once orientation ended 9 months ago. All we have to look forwards to now is prelim results, mugging, uni apps, mugging, scholarship apps, mugging, As, a period of wild crazy fun, hectic preparation for uni, then being wrenched away from the warm comfortable friendly RJC for ever and ever and ever.

Who knows if friends will still stay together? Who knows if I will ever find better company, wherever I end up?

It saddens me to think that this whole process of 'growing up' might mean being less weird and doing less retarded stuff. Maybe in future you'd even see me sitting lady-like, smiling lady-like, laughing politely, speaking intellectually and eloquently all the time. In other words, being BORING. There won't be any unglamness to laugh at, freudian slips to howl over. We'd just be adults and make boring adult conversations about work and babies D:

Haha.

Monday, September 15, 2008

11:25 AM

OVERLOAD.

After tomorrow I will run around screaming madly.

That is, IF I survive tonight. And tomorrow.

What the f is the school playing at, giving so little time to study for bio papers?? Bio papers are ALWAYS (well except cts in j1) before physics papers even though I'd say we have much more to cram. What do the departments do, draw lots to see who goes first? Does the bio department always lose these lots after winning it the first time? Wtf. Seriously.

Okay. Okay. I should do something more productive, seeing that I have like 4 hours to cram both bio and math into my head. And I haven't touched applications syllabus AT ALL, not once during the hols. Charming. Exciting. Can't wait.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

12:02 PM

aAAAAaaaaAHHHhhH!

Make me study! Make me study!

Omg.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

4:25 PM

Reading about palindromic enzyme restriction sites make me even less motivated to study. How can anyone say that science is proof that God doesn't exist? Yeah you prove that everything on earth can be explained with formulas and algorithms and patterns but isn't that just more evidence that there is Someone who's been spending a long time designing everything?

The probability that natural laws and palindromic enzyme restriction sites spontaneously occurred in a big bang is probably even less than the probability that there is God.

The point is, I think I think too much about inane nonsense like this while reading my bio notes (which is why I stopped, after 2 pages). And I just used the word inane after scolding lynette for using it. Haha!

Sorry about that rant on palindromic enzyme restriction sites, I just thought it was rather ingenuous, the idea. If I were to design human dna I wouldn't have cared about whether the sequences could be read both ways lol.

5:03 AM

Okay I'm quite worried. My head has been swimming since last night and the world looks as if its going around in warped swirls all the time D:

I hate studying.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

3:13 AM

Math was no deal at all.

Chem is going to be even more no deal D:

Next monday and tuesday suck hell.

And the extent of my younger brother's spoilt-ness was truly exemplified last night, when my mother was asleep and we had to get our own dinner from the kitchen. There wasn't a clean bowl or spoon in the racks, so guess what he did? He ate his dinner (which was soupy noodles) out of a cup with a fork rather than wash a bowl. Lol. Hey even I'm not that lazy yet.

Okay back to mugging. I will never touch a bottle of chicken essence for a long time after As end. It's giving me ulcers D:

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

2:54 PM

Waaaaaaaaaaaah sian how many more exams to go? Bloody hell.

I'm going to fail math tomorrow, I know it. I can hardly do any of the questions.

And very likely chem on friday too. Makes me kinda wonder what I spent all of the month doing. Oh what? Chem and math? Yeahhhh right.

Saturday, September 06, 2008

5:48 PM

I really wish that there could be prelim mugging without the prelims actually coming. Doing what we do every day is actually very fun, but when monday comes I doubt it'd be fun anymore D:

Today was the sluggish-iest day for weeks. It was just so QUIET. And lethargic. /: And there was hardly anybody around today. So we went to play basketball to break the silence lol.

Sigh. Well there's still one more day, still got time for the world to end! (: It'll be a great time really, I think I'm satisfied with all the happiness I've had in this world already (:

Warrrgh.

Oh oh yewei and I have decided to become yonghan's Prom King item managers. Hahaha. We got this damn cool hit, lyrics by yewei background music by jiening. It involves a secondhand serenade song and lots of stuff about going to pee. Haha! Confirm big hit with everyone.

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I'd tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I gues I'm gonna miss my chance again.

Friday, September 05, 2008

2:44 PM

Haha the final light left in the councilroom finally went off while yewei was alone last night, leaving him surrounded by wisps of mercury from the leaking bulb. Plan move-into-welfare-room was excuted so now we're like a small squatter settlement in there. Lol.

Still quite indignant abt the proteins chem question in tuition. Keratin is alpha-helix, not beta-pleated sheet, so THERE. Hmpf.

Hahaha.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

4:12 PM

In another admirably ridiculous spurt of genius, we have managed to conjure up the Cok Family, a retarded family full of retards whose lives revolve around laughing at each other, incest and making sexual innuendoes. Presenting to ourselves,

The Father: Kovan Cok
Our papa is dying of Aids. Which explains why he scratches himself so much (claims that it's mosquito bites, but we know better!) and lies around in isolation in the welfare room looking like a corpse. He's had various wives, the latest of which died supposedly of a car accident which left him devastated. And angsty. Super angsty.

The Older Brother: Cassanova Cok (aka nick tong)
Oh how we all grow up to be like our name decrees. Cassanova Cok believes in loving everything lovingly, even his sister. And animals (aka giraffes). Rightful heir to papa's inheritance, he is the target of all jealousy and scheming plots. Also known lovingly as the NLM, as in No-Link-Man, or Nabeh-Lamejokes-Man.

The Older Sister: Cecilia-no Cok Cui Cui (aka lynette)
A girl with dubious sexual orientation, she is willing to go to any extent to get her hands on the Inheritance. This includes pimping daddy and pimping korkor. She stops at nothing. In fact, she prefers 'guys with experience'. Incest is one of her middle names.

The Cool Twins: Chase Nyuen Cok and Christina Nyuen Cok (aka yewei and jiening)
Borne of a Vietnamese wife, these two are the coolest deal in town. They recently found out that their mother died not of a car accident as papa claimed, but because of their simultaneous entrance into this world that... was quite a painful experience to the poor woman. The only normal people in this dysfunctional incestuous family, favourite catch phrases include: 'Omg, the INCEST', 'Jinx doublejinx triplejinx quadruplejinx quintituplejinx sextituplejinx septituplejinx octatuplejinx nanotuplejinx decatuplejinx...er dimple!' and a really cool handshake that's been the talk of town.

Hahaha. Shit we are damn bored. Mugging sucks. You know? D:

But omg yewei is really like my long-lost brother. He's the only one who'd do damn retarded things with me like zillion-jinxing each other and seeing who can hold a note longer and bursting out into random songs that make no sense AND finding all this extremely funny and exciting. And lynette is some horny girl. Tsk. Seriously ah. All her Freudian slips. We have them ALL recorded down in the jive so we can show her future boyfriends haha! Nicktong is DAMN ADORABLE. He thinks he's very funny but really he isn't. And he's always living in his own little world, which causes him to randomly say stuff that're totally unlrelated to the topic at hand. Kovan kok is just an angsty block of wood who cracks us up because of yewei's unreciprocated love towards him.

Aw. Like family right! (:

Except I'm like the maid. Buy lunch, buy drinks, buy dinner, then in the end never pay up. Pls.