Sunday, January 31, 2010

6:24 PM

I've done enough thinking and reflecting for an entire term, my brains are dead and I have no more profound thoughts left to share with anyone. Now I just want to live life as it is, and get a MOVE ON.

Kinda miss the days when we were all young and innocent and innocently happy. Strange how that was just last year.

Felt like a lifetime ago.

1:47 PM

Today after a night's rendezvous in ballsy's room we woke up too late for church. Then decided to finish the leftover awesome salmon cream sauce pasta from yesterday and have raspberry french toast. I finally realise why people put orange juice in their egg mix and not raspberry jam stolen from the common fridge, it's because your toast turns out an ugly shade of grey.

On the way home a random hobo shook my hand, looked me in the eyes and told me not to be afraid of him, then kissed my hand.

wtf.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

6:43 PM

5 krispy kremes! (mm)

muller yoghurtt

instant noodles + egg + ham + stir fried veggies

Gu chocolate lava cakes + cups of pure chocolate (YUMS)

HTHT about life and death, love and loss, God and existence

= ~~surefire way to have even fatter cheeks~~ fun stayover at balls' and mildred's hall! (:

2:03 PM

An unfrequented road-

Yet have all roads

a clearing in the end.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

11:58 AM

Can you unfriend a friend because of what she/he did in a past life? Or is that being too judgmental? Hmm.

Just asking.

Monday, January 25, 2010

6:31 PM

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.

Back into the rhythm of life!

Thank you for inspiring me to turn back.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

10:44 PM

I don't know why I'm so hungry today. From the moment I woke, I had 2 scones, a banoffee dessert, like 5?6? pieces of chocolate, a cup of yoghurt, a plate of sambal longbeans+mushrooms, half a large box of blueberries, and I ate dinner (was stir fried pork + more of those veggies + rice, aha leftover stuff from weds) at 7pm and at 10.30pm (same thing, more leftovers) AND I'M STILL HUNGRY. I wanna polish off my yoghurt but I'm feeling guilty. Mm. Maybe I will.

Sudden craving for durians I want durian ):

I need another good book I've finished every novel in this room and reread some): BORING.

3:16 PM

O.M.G.

There's a black blob bobbing up and down in my skype window that is LYNETTE'S HEAD, because she claims to be doing a BUTTERFLY STROKE ON HER TABLE.

"nette what are you doing?? where are you??"

"whoo I'm the LOCH NESS MONSTER!!!"

And she called me a bitch TWICE.

I am emotionally disturbed.

2:56 PM

I want nuggets.

I want duck rice from chinatown.

EEEEEE lynette lee is damn gross she's waving her snot-filled tissue about in my face UNGLAM QUEEN

Thursday, January 21, 2010

3:40 PM

Omg damn pissed some idiot decided to toast pizza at bloody 7am in the morning, left it there to burn, setting off the bloody firealarm causing everyone to have to evacuate out into the cold, cold streets in their pajamas. Ass.

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Went iceskating with the law girls + boy yesterday, have to say that it's very tiring and I have no psychomotor skills whatsoever. I would have given up completely and just sat there and sulked if yiming didn't patiently hold my hand and force me to walk. Haha my legs ache now!! Too tense already aha looks like I'm not cut out for this.

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Omg I wanna make skittles vodka! So pretty.

But I hate vodka maybe we can mix it with something nicer!

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Hee heee I'm such a bully.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

10:44 PM

The wound on my finger is getting very bad, and I'm very scared it'd go septic or something ): It looks quite disgusting, think it was slashed quite deep. I don't know how to make it better! Shouldn't let it touch water, but it's on my index finger so I can't and plasters just keep the moisture in and gets it infected. Times like these I wish I was home where my mummy would know what to do.

Hold me, blow all the pride from my bones

With your fire

Hold me, breathe on this heart made of stone

Make it pure

Feel like doing something spiritually enriching but then I always do after good sunday services, and the enthusiasm dies off somewhere in the middle of the week. This is called being a 三分钟热 christian but I'm too bogged down by worldly matters to disengage myself and actually change. And I'm feeling way too indifferent sometimes. It's like reaching the adolescent stage of my faith where I'm all disillusioned by everything, and when I feel like rebelling against it all. You know how you can love your parents very much and still want to hurt them and disregard everything they say? The advice they give may be wise but sometimes wisdom isn't what you need. Maybe what you need is ATTENTION, and you aren't getting any from them. Also, Hell seems enough of a long time away for repentance. Okay nevermind. Why am I reflecting so much nowadays? WHY AM I WASTING SO MUCH TIME ON THIS BLOG?

I need to be less vulgar, less proud, less lazy, less greedy, less selfish but it's so hard! How do people do it? How do people make that 360 degrees turn and never look back? I don't get it. So I shall just continue to wallow in my endless iniquities and my unfinished contracts essay.

Look at my hands, they're still full of faith

God keep them clean, till we finish this race.

12:18 PM

1. pancakes with ben&jerrys + blueberries for supper :D

2. family holiday plans-- rosebery roadtrip to somewhere in the UK!! :D DAMN EXCITING IDEA but we must persuade the guys to drive a manual car + wait for joel's soccer to be cancelled on a weekend -.-

3. drinking too much coffee = cannot sleep = DAMN TIRED NOW.

Monday, January 18, 2010

8:47 PM

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell;
It goes beyond the highest star,
And reaches to the lowest hell;
The guilty pair, bowed down with care,
God gave His Son to win;
His erring child He reconciled,
And pardoned from his sin.

Refrain:
O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints’ and angels’ song.

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade,
To write the love of God above,
Would drain the ocean dry.
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.

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I love my life; every single bit, all the tragic and mundane and awesome, nothing can be more perfect, more imperfect, more beautiful.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

3:01 PM

So teach us to number our days,

that we may get a heart of wisdom.

-- psalm 90:12

Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that."

-- james 4:13-15

Is slightly happier with church now! Decided to try the church nearby with joel cos we're both too lazy to travel to our old churches. The sermons are the best I've heard in a long long while. Though the worship is a little lacking (compared to hillsong which is almost unbeatable) it's really not bad and I like the church, it has character (: yays. Now I can sleep in more on sundays.

Made our pancakes! With honey and blueberries :D We got the wrong type of pancake mix though, so our pancakes looked and tasted like roti prata. Going to have milk and hot chocolate later while studying! Haha love my study dates with yijun.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

6:07 PM

I need to go for shopaholics anonymous ): zz used my card so much that I ran out of money and had to borrow like LOADS of money off becca. Aha. Oh no. Angst angst. I hate the sales!!!! WHY!!!

P.s. OMG I have CHUBBY CHEEKS NOW my dimples are getting damn pronounced!!!! D: Okay random observation in the mirror.

Yijun and I gonna make pancakes tmr, so exciting :D You know you've been living too long with somebody when your periods start to synchronise and you get the same food cravings at almost the same time!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

4:17 PM

Being humble is not underestimating or overestimating yourself, but knowing exactly what you are worth.

Something's changed, but I don't know if it's for better or worse.

9:38 AM

OMG.

In one day, I managed to break both my new year's resolutions AND screw up my sleep cycle.

Instead of studying I went to oxford street with the law girls in search of much needed boots... we didn't manage to find boots but we found loads of sales instead ): The thing is, we still need to go back to find boots, so that means I have to face oxford street again, which is a bad, bad thing.

Then I went home and took a 'short nap' and woke up at 3am o.o that made my short nap as short as an ordinary day's worth of sleep :S

Die! die! die!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

10:09 AM

It's SNOWING! (:

Okay though it's snowed before in the past few days I haven't actually seen it snow, so not counted. It's so pretty (: Until you walk on it and it all turns into dirty brown mush, that is.

Yesterday we were having a maggi mee party and we found out from the guys that practically all the LSE guys are some form of smokers. OMG. My little bubble world just fell apart. Okay not that exaggerated but you get what I mean.

But this is too serious a topic to be harped on early in the morning when its snowing! So I shall go cook lunch now.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

7:42 PM

PMS is hitting many of us girls here now and it's totally not the best time. I know many others are very homesick, and it's probably because of the acute loneliness that hits you in the face after going back to singapore and having abundant friends again. I'm very very thankful that my hallmates are probably the most tight-knit of all the other halls, so we don't feel that lonely. We have dinners together and we study together, and if you're lonely you know the others are just a few rooms away. But somehow sometimes I just feel that impending doom, that the time will come when this safe happy bubble finally bursts like it did once last term (leaving me a horrific teary mess) and it leaves me deeply uneasy.

Take everything slowly.

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In other news, Yijun and I are planning to turn over very new leaves! Firstly by not being so frivolous spending wise (ohoho you should hear what we had for dinner yesterday! And today!) and by studying very hard from now onwards! Hopefully this won't turn out to be a typical new year's resolution.. I need my good grades and money!!

Yes what we had for dinner yesterday. We were are marksnspencers grocery shopping. Let me tell you that grocery shopping is DAMN CATHARTIC it's almost like retail therapy! Yes and we found reduced to clear food which were damn cheap and nice! 50p sandwich, £1.5 king prawn pasta, 12 rocky road desserts for 79p! THIS is frugal living whoo!! After dinner we made kopi, took alot of snacks and chocolates downstairs, and studied till midnight (: Sounds like a good start right!! Haha it needs to stay this way. Today's lunch was wedges and another reduced to clear blueberry muffin from MnS (omg 79p for 4), and dinner was an awesome and cheap burger in school. Okay I know compared to singapore food this all sounds frightfully pathetic and YES no wonder I'm losing weight, but it's really not that bad. Saves you money, saves you weight so ultimately gives you satisfaction aha.

Okay study.

Monday, January 11, 2010

8:17 PM

Loves my hall family <3

Came back to the hall and found out, to my horror, that the guys totally cannot survive without us girls. Jenhan was eating curry chicken and bread for dinner every day and joel was practically begging me to cook for him, because he was having 4-5 disgusting salty microwave dinners every single bloody day.

So we had a reunion dinner yesterday! Because we took pity on them, Yijun and I cooked teriyaki chicken with egg and onions, and it was awesome. Had them with rice and fries, mango pudding and portwine for dessert. The four of us sat in the kitchen and chatted for 3-4hours straight haha.

Then had My Old Dutch pancakes for lunch with the law girls, and they are awesome! £5 Mondays :D Bought my new hp!! It's a really chio purple phone and I loves it.

So far everything's going really fab, not very homesick at all unless I have time to think of home. Hope it stays this way for a long long time. It's super duper cold though! And my room is extremely cold thanks to the stupid spoilt heater ): I slept in jeans AND MY WINTER COAT last night and I was still freezing ): joel wants to charge me rent for camping in his room and using his awesome heater heat already. zz.

p.s. NETTE IM NOT PREGNANT AHAHAHA. ok inside joke friends that was not serious.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

9:50 AM

Okay back. Damn badly jetlagged ): I hope it snows heavily on sunday night and school closes on monday!!! plsplsplsplspls

Thursday, January 07, 2010

3:54 PM

OMGIHAVETOLEAVESINGAPORESOOON

TOACOLDANDCOLDANDLONELYLONDON

)): sigh.

Yijun says jenhan says its -1 to -10 now!!! Coldest winter in 30 years!!! I am so dead ):

Banished to a friendless cold existence.

Haha okay life isn't going to be that bleak and dreary I was just exaggerating. In fact, the law girls are going ICESKATING in week 2, and my hall is gna have tuan yuan fan when I come back (I have a steamboat machine now how awesome is that!!) and the PUBbers wanna do a road trip!! But ahhh. Oh well. Home ):

3:39 PM

Was just craving tauhuay and thinking about how nice it would be if I had a prince charming (or my oil sheikh, not picky) who'd brave storm and ERP to deliver it all the way to my house...

Then my dad came in and offered me tauhuay.

zz.

Well okay lah at least I got my tauhuay. Cannot complain.

Monday, January 04, 2010

2:01 PM

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVEN'T EATEN JAP FOOD AT ALL. OMG. AND SATAY. AND PRATA.

Friends this cannot do!!!!!

Sunday, January 03, 2010

3:01 PM

My top 25 songs according to my itunes! Most of which are probably foreign to you all haha BUT they are nice songs anyway:

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1. Yellow- Coldplay (ok but I'm sure you know this and stop judging me I know it's damn old!!)

2. Monsoon- Tokio Hotel

3. Try- Asher Book

4. Someday You Will Be Loved- Death Cab for Cutie

5. Stranger Things Have Happened- Foo Fighters

6. Come Alive- Foo Fighters

7. Ordinary Pain- Lifehouse

8. Luv- Travis

9. Writing To Reach You- Travis

10. Sing For Absolution- Muse

11. Mad World- Adam Lambert

12. Gives You Hell- AAR

13. Move Along- AAR

14. Let It Die- Foo Fighters

15. Let Go (Frou Frou Cover)- Boys Like Girls

16. Rush of Blood to the Head- Coldplay

17. Run- Snow Patrol

18. Time Is Running Out- Muse

19. I'll Be- Edwin McCain

20. If This Is Goodbye- Lifehouse

21. Long Road To Ruin- Foo Fighters

22. Butterfly- Lifehouse

23. Running Away- Lifehouse

24. Through Glass- Stone Sour

25. Strange and Beautiful- Aqualung

AND my top 25 according to ME, the most reliable source for myself:

1. Monsoon- tokiohotel

2. Yellow- coldplay

3. Stranger Things Have Happened- foofighters

4. Someday You Will Be Loved- deathcab

5. Time Is Running Out- muse

6. Strawberry Swing- Coldplay (the MV is awesome pls go watch)

7. Ordinary Pain- lifehouse

8. Move Along- AAR

9. Let Go- boyslikegirls

10. Rush of Blood to the Head- coldplay

11. Take Me Away (Acoustic)- Lifehouse

12. Hey Jude- Beatles

13. Strange and Beautiful- aqualing

14. Through Glass- stonesour

15. Say (All I Need)- OneRepublic

16. Wonderwall- Oasis

17. Somewhere Only We Know- Keane

18. Luv- Travis

19. Crashed (Acoustic)- Daughtry

20. From Where You Are- Lifehouse

21. You and I Both- Jason Mraz

22. Last Train Home- Ryan Star

23. Stop Crying Your Heart Out- Leona Lewis/ Oasis (can't decide which version is better)

24. Tonight- FM Static

25. Savin' Me- Nickelback

haha this is very random!

2:32 PM

In one week my holidays end and I have to fly 13hours back to london ):

cause everybody needs somebody

it's just an ordinary pain,

just an ordinary pain.

2:31 PM

Whose number one can I be?

Friday, January 01, 2010

5:48 PM

Is glad it ended on a good note.

Is abit sad, but there wasn't any other way.

Maybe next time.