Friday, July 30, 2010

4:58 PM

bday celebs w (both) bestbuds and councilfriends and classmates, meeting scholarship friends (and getting suaned), meeting lse friends (and getting suaned), sunway lagooooon tomorrow

Life cannot get better than this (: haven't felt so happy in months.

You know how they say you find God when you're most desolate and desperate, because you have no one and nothing else to turn to? I don't think that's the way it should work at all. It's when life is beautiful and awesome like this that I thank God for everything He's given me. No one else can give you anything better than that

WHOOHOO OKTOBERFEST WITH YIMINGS :D

Thursday, July 29, 2010

5:18 PM

Love my friends <3

Monday, July 26, 2010

4:16 PM

just missed the last 11:11 of my teenage life

damn

If you ever turn away
If you ever change your mind
If the road ahead becomes too hard to climb
If there's something in your heart that tells you to stop
Oh, to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

7:31 PM

After much observation of friends and self-reflection, I realised how happy I am being single (:

Monday, July 19, 2010

7:22 PM

I cannot explain to you how it feels like to know that there are people who give a damn about your existence in this world.

You won't understand until you've actually known how it feels like to have no one give a damn.

<3 it makes your heart brim over

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

5:57 PM

Because my darling lynette lee pangsehed me today I decided to meet up with two old friends AND I REALLY MISS OLD FRIENDS just sitting around talking cock and catching up with life. Familiarity is such a comfortable thing! Like how I didn't mind at all when hweeleong decided that I looked like a transvestite prostitute from orchard road albeit in a 'it's a good thing, what I'm actually trying to say that you look fine' way. Though sean and I couldn't in any way see how looking like a tranny whore is in any way good.

And I was wondering why this sudden revelation now when I've been seeing old friends almost every day since I came back, then I realised most of the first 2-3weeks were spent seeing friends that I've been in contact with in London. In some ways it's like I haven't exactly missed them at all, because nothing much has changed.

Can't wait for council dinner and class dinner this weekend and seeing everyone again (:

Monday, July 12, 2010

7:15 PM

Spent the night in the old councilroom with mandy joo and jiaying trying to learn the befriender's dance from scratch, because my dear friends decided to volunteer me for it. We got distracted 3/4 of the time with facebooking and.... taking silly pictures with mandy's macbook!!

I was then reminded that I haven't actually mellowed at all (contrary to what ngiam said). I am still the same screwed up person who can spend hours being entertained with a few pieces of cloth, some toys and a camera. It's the company that's changed. Not that the present company is bad, it's just different. More mellow, for the lack of a better word.

I miss J2! Especially all the fun I had with the 27ths.. matchsupports and school events, filthy councilrooms with filthier junk, study buddies and the whole she-bang. But growing further away from all that childish fun is A PART OF GROWING UP. Which I guess is a good thing? It's just that once in a while when I hang with my 27ths,( who're perpetually stuck in a state of childishness hoho), I get reminded of how extremely awesome life used to be. Again, it's not that life isn't good now. But it's an entirely different sort of good. It's no longer the simple clean good that J2 provided; it's... a process of finding who you are and want to be in this world. It's not so much fun as it is satisfying. It makes you hate the world a little, be cynical a little. Know your place more. You know? I don't make sense.

Just trying to say that I kinda do really miss J2.

And to end, old is truly gold (:

p.s. old as in old friends not that I am old but OH GOD the big two-oh is coming I AM old D:

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

10:03 AM

Really am not the sort to sit around enjoying life ugh. Because this week the medicine peeps are incapacitated, and so are in camp army boyz, I have hardly any friends available to while time away with. Spent 2 days watching drama serials and am getting depressed about that. Geez seriously? This is after hoping for months during crazy exam period that I'd have loads of time with nothing to do.

But yes I'm fidgeting all the time. Feeling like I should be out there saving lives, the planets, babies whatever. You know, something useful or meaningful. So looks like as much as I want to be a taitai in future, with loads of free time and cash, I'd probably kill myself a week into that job zz.

However since I'm also too lazy to find something worthwhile to do this month (since it's my bday month so by that logic I get to slack!) I shall just hope this week tides over quickly!