Thursday, March 31, 2011

4:53 PM

IT'S SO FREAKING HOT I wish I was back in singapore where such a thing as AIRCON existed damnit

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

5:11 PM

I wish the world was flat like the old days,

then I could travel just by folding a map.

No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways--

there'd be no distance that can hold us back.

Monday, March 28, 2011

6:23 PM

Spring is here! (: The sun rises at 6am and sets at 7pm, and the afternoons are painfully sunny. So blissful.

So I realised recently that my life in london is really different from my singapore life, especially in terms of friends. Back home I had a wide pool of good friends but only a few really good ones. I hung around different friends almost every day. But here I see the same few people almost on a daily basis, but I feel like I've known them forever. Well I guess it's not a bad change! When you grow older you just need some people you know you can count on for everything haha.

What's happened so far--

yimings and I won the lse internal mooting competition whoohoo! Did not expect it at all but glad all the same yay. We celebrated by ordering the oiliest, grossest chinese takeaway ever-- felt like I was drinking cooking oil by the cupful.

Went for matt&kim gig with vans and darrell, it was awesome. Freaking moshpit that place. But when matt jumped into the crowd I lunged in and grabbed his hand! Whoohoo life complete. And vans very suddenly had to fly back to sg so I'm not seeing her for a month ): miss her much.

Stayed in school overnight to finish my essay, just for kicks. Quite fun!

Audrey and I made a sumptious lunch on sunday-- salted duck egg with porridge, kailan in oyster sauce, cereal prawns, and fried toufu! Haha I HAD NO IDEA ONE COULD FAIL IN COOKING SALTED EGGS. I mean seriously have you seen half-boiled salted eggs before??? Not a pretty sight.

On a related note, edds is moving out next year because of the whole breakup mess. And becca's moving in! Don't know if that'll make any difference to the house dynamics and stuff, but hopefully everything turns out well. Maybe auds and I should have just moved and found a 2-persons apartment since we're such a disgusting lesbianic couple, but haha okay no.

Sunday afternoon was awesomely bright and sunny, so took a walk around london town with berns! And had afternoon tea with scones yummyy I am so in love with tea this year. Which is a good thing haha seeing how I was addicted to double-shot starbucks lattes last year. AND I WENT TO CHURCH WHOOHOO. Was supposed to go with joel but he pangsehed me as usual, so went to gerald's church. Realised how much I missed the whole thing. Haha time to change church buddies to someone more reliable (okay I'm a lousy christian must go with someone then can attend church one).

This afternoon was sunny and warm as well, so had a picnic in the field near school with gerald. I love london! When the sun comes out, everyone flocks to fields and bask in the daylight haha. It was so peaceful and blissful just watching the world go by outside but now I'm stuck indoors with work ugh. Hate exams.

I love second year! I don't say this enough.

OKAY I have procastinated wayyyy too much aha back to work.

1:16 PM

You have searched me, LORD,
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, LORD, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts,God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

Monday, March 21, 2011

12:39 PM

I miss God

Sunday, March 20, 2011

3:06 PM

WHY AM I PERMANENTLY HUNGRY ALL THE TIME THIS IS DAMN BAD

My cheeks are super chubby now but I still can't stop eating ))): I keep wolfing down food and omg dessert. Audrey and I ate dessert TWICE after dinner.

THIS NEEDS TO STOP. My tummy needs to stop thinking it's hungry oh man it's growling again (and I just ate a while ago) D: sian.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

2:36 PM

Something filled up my heart

with nothing

Someone told me not to cry

But now that I'm older,

my heart's colder

And I can see that it's a lie.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

10:55 PM

In yet another fit of impulsion, audrey and I bought a keyboard online!! Hahaha. Damn excited about it we've been itching to play something for ages. Hopefully it comes soon.

I want to play this:

my favourite deathcab song!

Haha but then again I always want to do this and that, but after finding out it takes time and patience to be really good at something I lose interest rather quickly (instant gratification max). I haven't touched a keyboard in like years, I was looking at piano sheets online and uh I'm not sure I'd be able to read bass clef notes anymore (which doesn't say much since I've never been a good sightreader anyway :/) We predict that we'll abandon our poor keyboard rather soon.... haha. Hopefully we didn't waste money!!

Monday, March 14, 2011

7:05 PM

I need to learn to take life in stride.

Sometimes I wonder if the world's so small,
that we can never get away from the sprawl.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

1:34 PM

Love, love, is a verb

Love is a doing word

Fearless on my breath

Gentle impulsion

Shakes me, makes me lighter

Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on fire,

Fearless on my breath.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

12:48 PM

I woke up today, had breakfast (scrambled eggs and toast), felt hungry and immediately went about making lunch. Hahaaa. I'm such a pig

I love fridays! They are my domestic household days (: Cleaning up my messy room, grocery shopping, baking desserts, cooking, watching shows on my laptop. Life can be so simple and wonderfully peaceful sometimes.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

3:19 PM

International pancakes day! (: yumm.

Auds just reminded me about lent. What should I give up for lent? Haha probably the same thing I've tried to do since secondary school-- abstaining from cursing. Don't know why I even bother trying anymore but shall put in more effort this year. So no more fwords and hokkien swearing from tmr until 23rd april! Let's see how long this will last shall we.

And perhaps I should start being a good christian girl and go to church or at least read the bible religiously aha okay I will. This is a good time to get back on my christian track and stop being lazy/ disillusioned! But maybe I'd only really start after this thursday when I'm less busy and have more time to think about my faith and why I'm doing all this. Rar hate stupid lousy moots

Saturday, March 05, 2011

3:28 AM

My younger brother is a very smart kid and I'm proud of him!

and on your machine I slur a plea

for you to come home

but it's too late,

I should have given you a reason to stay,

given you a reason to stay.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

11:19 PM

LOL. lse's supposed ties with libya and the exchange of 'blood money' has caused the school to erupt in a zillion protests over the past few weeks and just culminated into our school's director resigning? you never get such excitement back home do you. but seriously right, is it just because I'm here in lse that I notice all these things happening, or is it just a very bad time to be living? first the greece/ireland/iceland financial troubles, then egypt's protests, the drastic cut in public funding of education in the UK, and suddenly a huge furore over libya. not like I still give a shit about current affairs but EVERYONE's talking about all these things it's abit hard to ignore! now I feel very ignorant especially when the people in my international law class are furiously debating over world issues before class starts haha oh well.

4:26 PM

I hate being a girl sometimes, all this hormonal changes shit. Today I feel like life has absolutely no meaning and that I'm an utter failure at everything I do, and everything makes me feel helpless and on the verge of tears. But I KNOW that's crap and it's just hormones talking but it still doesn't make me feel better. It just makes me devour chocolate by the family blocks, so I grow fat and have even more legitimate reasons to hate myself.

Ugh. This needs to passss.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

12:16 AM

RANDOM THOUGHT: if you had twins, would you keep a common pile of clothes for them or keep their clothes separate? I wonder if it'll make any difference on their, you know, emotional development or something. This is REALLY random haha ikr

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.