Sunday, December 25, 2011

8:51 PM

so this is christmas, I hope you had fun

the near and the dear one

the old and the young

Saturday, December 24, 2011

10:02 PM

spent the 23rd and today helping out at some homeless people shelter and I must say I had a good time! there were wayy too many volunteers and too little needy persons, but it's great chatting to people who've come from all walks of life. everyone's so nice and smiley too, yay festive spirit! I had to chat with a few homeless people today, and it really puts one's overly sheltered life into perspective. And makes you feel extremely helpless, because I had absolutely no idea what to talk to them about. You can't ask them where they live, or what they do for a living, and you feel so bad telling them you have an apartment right in central london and study at a university which charges you £14k a year for tuition fees. So you basically just smile at them, stare at your feet and make extremely small talk about london weather.

good experience. merry xmas (:

Friday, December 23, 2011

12:20 AM

some things remind me that deep down inside I haven't changed all that much, and that's somewhat comforting. my holiday traditions-- rewatching the entire run of himym (my 4th run haha! I'm such a loser), rereading my favouritest novel in the world (the secret history by donna tartt, seriously best book ever), and just binging on icecream by the tub every day. I do this routine every single holiday and it is awesomely satisfying. whoohoo holidays!

Thursday, December 22, 2011

9:28 PM

I LOVE CHRISTMAS.

I feel so warm and fuzzy inside all the time now I JUST WANT TO HUG THE WORLD

This year has been absolutely craaaazy, I loved every bit of it as much as I hated it. it was terrible, ugly, painful, but such a great ride. may every year be so amazing.

okay scrap that, one year of this shit is great but a life full of such nonsense would really be terrible aha

I once had a girl, or should I say, she once had me?

She showed me her room, wasn't it good, Norwegian wood?

Friday, December 16, 2011

9:27 PM

malta!

in that dream moving slow through the morning

Thursday, December 15, 2011

1:59 PM

cute cashier at pret gave me a clementine with my peppermint tea, smiled and told me to have a good day. I love london.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

3:57 PM

holidays <3

happy (:

Monday, December 12, 2011

1:28 AM

starting to hit me that all the complicated shit that comes to me actually happens because of me. hmm. not cool.

Thursday, December 08, 2011

12:41 AM

hahaha HAD THE MOST AWESOME WHIRLWIND FRIENDSHIP(S) ever today, talk about hitting it off immediately.

today was a day of utter impromptu-- rashly jumping onto a train to harrods where we ate a hugeass christmas sundae, then going over to ym's place to send her off to sg (boo), meeting her JC friends and offering to show them the restaurant they wanted to have dinner at, but ending up giving them a tour of london then stopping for a drink at a pub and many rounds of bridge at my place.

a good end to the first term of my last year!

Monday, December 05, 2011

4:40 PM

Emotions overwhelm me in really random situations. today I was in the middle of a 2hour lecture when it suddenly hit me out of the blue that in about 6 months' time I would be back in singapore permanently and having to deal with employment, and then there's no turning back from adulthood afterwards. had a mild panic attack in my head during which I contemplated jumping out of my seat and dashing through the doors, hopefully disappearing forever. HAHA. so melodramatic.

I have no idea why the future intimidates me so much these days, I am going to attribute it to monthly womanly woes. hormones are always a great scapegoat-- they can't defend themselves.

last night I had a dream that I was in a car which hit a girl, and when I turned backwards to look at her lifeless form she was blue with eyes wide open and her brains were blown all over the sidewalk. I only remembered it while walking to school, when I saw a pigeon nearly being hit by a truck. all so disconcerting.

4:38 PM

"This christmas I've decided to put mistletoe in my back pocket so all the people I don't like can kiss my ass."

Sunday, December 04, 2011

12:36 AM

late night drink-in-hand ramblings from becca on my balcony: 'you know what he is? he is a hot potato anyone who touches should drop immediately. NO scrap that-- at least potatoes are nice to eat. he's like, he's like a hot tree bark!'

cambridge tomorrow (:

Friday, December 02, 2011

12:26 AM

in the morning I'll be with you

but it'll be a different kind

I'll be holding all the tickets

and you'll be owning all the fines

Thursday, December 01, 2011

12:03 AM

you have no fucking idea how painful a mood can be.